The silver shilling


There was once a shilling, which came forth from the mint springing and shouting, "Hurrah! now I am going out into the wide world." And truly it did go out into the wide world. The children held it with warm hands, the miser with a cold and convulsive grasp, and the old people turned it about, goodness knows how many times, while the young people soon allowed it to roll away from them. The shilling was made of silver, it contained very little copper, and considered itself quite out in the world when it had been circulated for a year in the country in which it had been coined. One day, it really did go out into the world, for it belonged to a gentleman who was about to travel in foreign lands. This gentleman was not aware that the shilling lay at the bottom of his purse when he started, till he one day found it between his fingers. "Why," cried he, "here is a shilling from home; well, it must go on its travels with me now!" and the shilling jumped and rattled for joy, when it was put back again into the purse.
Here it lay among a number of foreign companions, who were always coming and going, one taking the place of another, but the shilling from home was always put back, and had to remain in the purse, which was certainly a mark of distinction. Many weeks passed, during which the shilling had travelled a long distance in the purse, without in the least knowing where he was. He had found out that the other coins were French and Italian; and one coin said they were in this town, and another said they were in that, but the shilling was unable to make out or imagine what they meant. A man certainly cannot see much of the world if he is tied up in a bag, and this was really the shilling's fate. But one day, as he was lying in the purse, he noticed that it was not quite closed, and so he slipped near to the opening to have a little peep into society. He certainly had not the least idea of what would follow, but he was curious, and curiosity often brings its own punishment. In his eagerness, he came so near the edge of the purse that he slipped out into the pocket of the trousers; and when, in the evening, the purse was taken out, the shilling was left behind in the corner to which it had fallen. As the clothes were being carried into the hall, the shilling fell out on the floor, unheard and unnoticed by any one. The next morning the clothes were taken back to the room, the gentleman put them on, and started on his journey again; but the shilling remained behind on the floor. After a time it was found, and being considered a good coin, was placed with three other coins. "Ah," thought the shilling, "this is pleasant; I shall now see the world, become acquainted with other people, and learn other customs."
"Do you call that a shilling?" said some one the next moment. "That is not a genuine coin of the country,– it is false; it is good for nothing."
Now begins the story as it was afterwards related by the shilling himself.
"'False! good for nothing!' said he. That remark went through and through me like a dagger. I knew that I had a true ring, and that mine was a genuine stamp. These people must at all events be wrong, or they could not mean me. But yes, I was the one they called 'false, and good for nothing.'
'Then I must pay it away in the dark,' said the man who had received me. So I was to be got rid of in the darkness, and be again insulted in broad daylight.
'False! good for nothing!' Oh, I must contrive to get lost, thought I. And I trembled between the fingers of the people every time they tried to pass me off slyly as a coin of the country. Ah! unhappy shilling that I was! Of what use were my silver, my stamp, and my real value here, where all these qualities were worthless. In the eyes of the world, a man is valued just according to the opinion formed of him. It must be a shocking thing to have a guilty conscience, and to be sneaking about on account of wicked deeds. As for me, innocent as I was, I could not help shuddering before their eyes whenever they brought me out, for I knew I should be thrown back again up the table as a false pretender. At length I was paid away to a poor old woman, who received me as wages for a hard day's work. But she could not again get rid of me; no one would take me. I was to the woman a most unlucky shilling. 'I am positively obliged to pass this shilling to somebody,' said she; 'I cannot, with the best intentions, lay by a bad shilling. The rich baker shall have it,– he can bear the loss better than I can. But, after all, it is not a right thing to do.'
'Ah!' sighed I to myself, 'am I also to be a burden on the conscience of this poor woman? Am I then in my old days so completely changed?' The woman offered me to the rich baker, but he knew the current money too well, and as soon as he received me he threw me almost in the woman's face. She could get no bread for me, and I felt quite grieved to the heart that I should be cause of so much trouble to another, and be treated as a cast-off coin. I who, in my young days, felt so joyful in the certainty of my own value, and knew so well that I bore a genuine stamp. I was as sorrowful now as a poor shilling can be when nobody will have him. The woman took me home again with her, and looking at me very earnestly, she said, 'No, I will not try to deceive any one with thee again. I will bore a hole through thee, that everyone may know that thou art a false and worthless thing; and yet, why should I do that? Very likely thou art a lucky shilling. A thought has just struck me that it is so, and I believe it. Yes, I will make a hole in the shilling,' said she, 'and run a string through it, and then give it to my neighbor's little one to hang round her neck, as a lucky shilling.' So she drilled a hole through me.
It is really not at all pleasant to have a hole bored through one, but we can submit to a great deal when it is done with a good intention. A string was drawn through the hole, and I became a kind of medal. They hung me round the neck of a little child, and the child laughed at me and kissed me, and I rested for one whole night on the warm, innocent breast of a child.
In the morning the child's mother took me between her fingers, and had certain thoughts about me, which I very soon found out. First, she looked for a pair of scissors, and cut the string.
'Lucky shilling!' said she, 'certainly this is what I mean to try.' Then she laid me in vinegar till I became quite green, and after that she filled up the hole with cement, rubbed me a little to brighten me up, and went out in the twilight hour to the lottery collector, to buy herself a ticket, with a shilling that should bring luck. How everything seemed to cause me trouble. The lottery collector pressed me so hard that I thought I should crack. I had been called false, I had been thrown away,– that I knew; and there were many shillings and coins with inscriptions and stamps of all kinds lying about. I well knew how proud they were, so I avoided them from very shame. With the collector were several men who seemed to have a great deal to do, so I fell unnoticed into a chest, among several other coins.
Whether the lottery ticket gained a prize, I know not; but this I know, that in a very few days after, I was recognized as a bad shilling, and laid aside. Everything that happened seemed always to add to my sorrow. Even if a man has a good character, it is of no use for him to deny what is said of him, for he is not considered an impartial judge of himself.
A year passed, and in this way I had been changed from hand to hand; always abused, always looked at with displeasure, and trusted by no one; but I trusted in myself, and had no confidence in the world. Yes, that was a very dark time.
At length one day I was passed to a traveller, a foreigner, the very same who had brought me away from home; and he was simple and true-hearted enough to take me for current coin. But would he also attempt to pass me? and should I again hear the outcry, 'False! good-for-nothing!' The traveller examined me attentively, 'I took thee for good coin,' said he; then suddenly a smile spread all over his face. I have never seen such a smile on any other face as on his. 'Now this is singular,' said he, 'it is a coin from my own country; a good, true, shilling from home. Some one has bored a hole through it, and people have no doubt called it false. How curious that it should come into my hands. I will take it home with me to my own house.'
Joy thrilled through me when I heard this. I had been once more called a good, honest shilling, and I was to go back to my own home, where each and all would recognize me, and know that I was made of good silver, and bore a true, genuine stamp. I should have been glad in my joy to throw out sparks of fire, but it has never at any time been my nature to sparkle. Steel can do so, but not silver. I was wrapped up in fine, white paper, that I might not mix with the other coins and be lost; and on special occasions, when people from my own country happened to be present, I was brought forward and spoken of very kindly. They said I was very interesting, and it was really quite worth while to notice that those who are interesting have often not a single word to say for themselves.
At length I reached home. All my cares were at an end. Joy again overwhelmed me; for was I not good silver, and had I not a genuine stamp? I had no more insults or disappointments to endure; although, indeed, there was a hole through me, as if I were false; but suspicions are nothing when a man is really true, and every one should persevere in acting honestly, for an will be made right in time. That is my firm belief," said the shilling.
Der var en skilling, den kom blank fra Mønten, sprang og klang, "hurra! nu skal jeg ud i den vide verden!" og det kom den.
Barnet holdt fast på den med varme hænder og den gerrige med kolde, klamme hænder; den ældre vendte og drejede den mange gange, mens ungdommen straks lod den løbe videre. Skillingen var af sølv, havde meget lidt kobber i sig og var allerede et helt år ude i verden, det vil sige, ude omkring i det land, hvor den var møntet; så kom den på rejse ud af landet, den var den sidste af landets mønt, der blev tilbage i pengepungen, dens rejsende herre havde med, han vidste ikke selv, han havde den, før den kom ham mellem fingrene.
"Her har jeg jo endnu en skilling hjemmefra!" sagde han, "den kan gøre rejsen med!" og skillingen klang og sprang af glæde, da han puttede den igen i pungen. Her lå den hos fremmede kammerater, der kom og gik; de ene gjorde plads for den anden, men skillingen hjemmefra blev altid tilbage; det var en udmærkelse.
Nu var allerede flere uger forbi, og skillingen var langt ude i verden, uden just at vide hvor; den hørte af de andre mønter, at de var franske og italienske; den ene sagde, at nu var de i den by, den anden sagde, at de var i den, men skillingen kunne ikke gøre sig forestilling derom, man ser ikke verden, når man altid er i en pose, og det var den; men som den en dag lå der, mærkede den, at pengepungen ikke var lukket, og da listede den sig til åbningen, for at kigge lidt ud; det skulle den nu ikke have gjort, men den var nysgerrig, det straffer sig; den gled ud i bukselommen, og da om aftnen pengepungen blev lagt til side, lå skillingen endnu, hvor den lå og kom med klæderne ud på gangen, der faldt den straks på gulvet; ingen hørte det, ingen så det.
I morgenstunden kom klæderne ind, herren tog dem på, rejste bort, og skillingen kom ikke med, den blev fundet, skulle igen gøre tjeneste, gik ud med tre andre mønter.
"Det er dog rart at se sig om i verden!" tænkte skillingen, "kende andre mennesker, andre skikke!"
"Hvad er det for en skilling," blev der lige i det samme sagt. "Den er ikke landets mønt! den er falsk! dur ikke!"
Ja nu begynder skillingens historie, som den siden fortalte den.
"Falsk! dur ikke! det fór igennem mig," sagde skillingen. "Jeg vidste, jeg var af godt sølv, god klang og med ægte præg. De måtte bestemt tage fejl, mig kunne de ikke mene, men mig mente de dog! mig var det de kaldte falsk, jeg duede ikke! 'Den må jeg give ud i mørke!' sagde manden, som havde den, og jeg blev givet ud i mørke og så igen skældt ud ved dagslys, – 'falsk, dur ikke! den må vi se at blive af med'."
Og skillingen sitrede mellem fingrene hver gang den i smug skulle listes bort og gælde for landets mønt.
"Jeg elendige skilling! hvad hjælper mig mit sølv, mit værd, mit præg, når det ikke har noget at betyde. Man er for verden, hvad verden tror om en! Det må dog være skrækkeligt at have ond samvittighed, at liste sig frem på det ondes vej, når jeg, der dog er aldeles uskyldig, kan være således til mode ved bare at have udseendet deraf! – Hver gang jeg blev taget frem, gruede jeg for de øjne, der ville se på mig; jeg vidste, at jeg ville blive stødt tilbage, kastet hen ad bordet, som var jeg løgn og bedrag.
En gang kom jeg til en stakkels fattig kone, hun fik mig i dagløn for sit slid og slæb, men hun kunne nu slet ikke blive mig kvit, ingen ville tage imod mig, jeg var en sand ulykke for hende.
'Jeg er såmænd nødt til at narre nogen med den!' sagde hun. 'Jeg har ikke råd til at gemme på en falsk skilling; den rige bager skal have den, han kan bedst tåle det, men en uret er det alligevel, jeg gør!'
Nu skal jeg endogså belemre konens samvittighed!" sukkede det i skillingen. "Er jeg da virkelig på mine ældre dage blevet så forandret?
Og konen gik til den rige bager, men han kendte alt for godt til de gangbare skillinger, jeg fik ikke lov at ligge, hvor jeg lå, jeg blev smidt i ansigtet på konen; hun fik intet brød for mig, og jeg følte mig så inderlig bedrøvet ved at være møntet således til andres fortræd, jeg som i unge dage havde været så frejdig og så sikker; så bevidst om mit værd og mit ægte præg. Jeg blev så melankolsk, som en stakkels skilling kan blive det, når ingen vil have den. Men konen tog mig hjem igen, betragtede mig ret inderligt, mildt og venligt. 'Nej, jeg vil ingen narre med dig!' sagde hun. 'Jeg vil slå et hul i dig, så at enhver kan se, at du er en falsk ting, – og dog, – det falder mig nu så ind, – du er måske en lykkeskilling, ja det vil jeg tro! den tanke kommer over mig. Jeg slår et hul i skillingen, trækker en lidse gennem hullet og giver så nabokonens lille barn skillingen om halsen som lykkeskilling!'
Og hun slog et hul i mig; det er aldrig behageligt at blive slået hul i, men når hensigten er god, kan man tåle meget! en lidse fik jeg igennem mig, blev en slags medalje at bære; jeg blev hængt det lille barn om halsen, og barnet smilede til mig, kyssede mig, og jeg hvilede en hel nat på barnets varme, uskyldige bryst.
I morgenstunden tog moderen mig imellem sine fingre, så på mig og havde sine tanker derved, det fornemmede jeg snart. Hun fik en saks frem og klippede lidsen over."
'Lykkeskilling!' sagde hun. 'Ja det skal vi nu se!' og hun lagde mig i surt, så at jeg blev grøn; derpå kittede hun hullet til, gned mig lidt, og gik så i mørkningen til lotterikollektøren for at få en lotteriseddel, der skulle bringe lykke.
Hvor var jeg ilde til mode! det klemte i mig, som om jeg skulle knække over; jeg vidste, jeg ville blive kaldt falsk og smidt hen og det lige foran den mængde skillinger og mønter, der lå med indskrift og ansigt, som de kunne være stolte af; men jeg slap; der var så mange mennesker hos kollektøren, han havde så travlt, jeg fór klingende i skuffen mellem de andre mønter; om der siden blev vundet på sedlen, ved jeg ikke, men det ved jeg, at allerede den næste dag var jeg kendt som en falsk skilling, lagt til side og sendt ud for at bedrage og altid bedrage. Det er nu ikke til at holde ud, når man har en reel karakter, og den kan jeg ikke nægte mig selv.
I år og dag gik jeg således fra hånd til hånd, fra hus til hus, altid udskældt, altid ilde set; ingen troede mig, og jeg troede ikke mig selv, ikke verden, det var en svær tid.
Da kom en dag en rejsende, ham blev jeg naturligvis snydt på, og han var troskyldig nok til at tage mig for gangbar mønt; men nu skulle han give mig ud, og da hørte jeg igen de råb: 'Dur ikke! falsk!'
'Jeg har fået den for ægte!' sagde manden og så nu ret nøje på mig; da smilede hele hans ansigt, det plejede ellers aldrig noget ansigt ved nøje at se på mig: 'Nej, hvad er dog det!' sagde han. 'Det er jo en af vore egne landets mønter, en god, ærlig skilling hjemmefra, som man har slået hul i og kalder falsk. Det var ganske morsomt det! Dig skal jeg dog opbevare og tage hjem med!'
Det fór af glæde gennem mig, jeg blev kaldt en god, ærlig skilling og hjem skulle jeg, hvor alle og enhver ville kende mig og vide, at jeg var af godt sølv og med ægte præg. Jeg kunne gerne have gnistret af glæde, men det ligger nu ikke i min natur at gnistre, det kan stål, men ikke sølv.
Jeg blev svøbt ind i fint papir, for ikke at blandes med de andre mønter og komme bort; og kun ved festlig lejlighed, når der mødtes landsmænd, blev jeg vist frem og overmåde vel omtalt; de sagde, at jeg var interessant; det er morsomt nok, at man kan være interessant uden at sige et eneste ord!
Og så kom jeg hjem! Al min nød var forbi, min glæde begyndte, jeg var jo af godt sølv, jeg havde det ægte præg, og det var mig slet ikke til fortræd, at man havde slået hul i mig som falsk; det gør ikke noget, når man ikke er det! man skal holde ud; alt kommer i tiden til sin ret! Det er nu min tro!" sagde skillingen.